Sometimes it takes a reminder to savor moments


Life is busy. Sometimes it just feels like I am "getting through" the day. I have little time to myself and hardly manage to take a shower. In fact, I woke up Donovan this morning when (for the third day in a row) Paxton woke up before my alarm and wouldn't go back to sleep just so I could hop in the shower.

The kids usually wake up at 7:15...no matter if they went to bed at 8 or 11 and want food, drinks, comfort, cartoons. Immediately "mommy mode" takes over and I begin changing pullups, dressing kids for the day, making cereal....now they want oatmeal, someone wants chocolate milk, someone wants juice, and the fit that comes from the fact that we are all out of strawberries....deal with the fit, (try not to) get frustrated. I haven't had time to take a shower, change out of my pajamas, eat breakfast...let alone brush my teeth.
But this strong mommy desire over takes my mind and I want my kids to be comfortable...and quiet :)

I've been in a slump for a couple weeks. It probably has to do with the fact that I am a little overtired from being woken up 3 times a night. Or that I want to spend time with Donovan, so I may occasionally (okay..frequently) stay up too late catching up on tv shows. I've hardly managed to shower and change into clothes other than clean yoga pants and a t-shirt (what most would accept as fancy pajamas). Or maybe it's those high energy kiddos that rarely get to go outside because it's sprinter (spring and winter...sometimes it's 65, then it's 19) and burn off some energy. Or possibly because of the fact that I am OCD about keeping my house clean....and that is near impossible with so many kids, so I am go go going. :) I constantly day dream about working out and getting back into shape.

I've slacked a TON with keeping up with reading the Bible and praying lately. It seems like I am going ALL day and am exhausted at night. Donovan keeps encouraging me to go through Prof. Horner's Bible reading plan on my Iphone app. You read 10 chapters a day and it keeps track of everything for you-where you left off, what to read next...etc. Due to being so tired and busy all day, I've managed to push aside my relationship with Christ and feel so convicted.

I've also slacked on my attitude. I've been SO negative. I have had such a bad attitude about things in general. A cup half empty sort of demeanor. Ya know-the kind you don't want to hang around. I haven't been very fun :) This afternoon while the kids were laying down for their naps, I was catching up on some blogging-I was reminded how this time in my life is only a season. Paxton was our last newborn baby and we won't be doing the 3 am feedings anymore. In fact, he's already past that point. Halynd will never be 21 pounds again. I don't need to puree Malachi's carrots anymore-he eats them whole with ranch. If my kids are hungry or thirsty-they open the refrigerator and bring me what they want. I look forward to the first time Malachi tries to make his own bowl of cereal or when Halynd tries to cut her hair while she cooks bacon (not that I ever did THAT) or when Paxton starts eating at the table with us. Even when the three of my kids start playing together.


The blog I mentioned is about a mother of two who lost her sweet baby girl when she was only two days old. I can't imagine the heartbreak. I was reminded that this "stuff" God has blessed me with-my family- is what it's all about. It's all about being thankful for my family and living in opportunities to spend time with each other and teaching them to honor God. Be it pouring juice in a sippy cup, doing laundry or cooking dinner- I have a ton to be thankful for. I have a lot to look forward to. Sometimes it just takes a reminder not to just "get through the day" but to savor the precious moments of life.



Comments

Keisha said…
Great post Meghan! Being a mom is the most difficult and rewarding job in the world. It's an enormous blessing and responsibility that God has given us. If it were easy, it wouldn't be this great! :)
January 25, 2012 at 8:19 PM
ashley said…
I am right there with you on feeling that there is never time for yourself..or, its a rarity..I am a stay at home mom as well. I only have one child here with me so I can't imagine several!
I don't know if you knew it or not, but 2 years ago we lost our baby at 37 weeks into the pregnancy and losing her has taught me not to be concerned about all the 'stuff' but then I do..and then I feel extreme guilt..like, Ella's life and death taught me nothing..as Keisha said "If it were easy, wouldn't it be great"
January 27, 2012 at 6:54 AM
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