It's a Golden Life

It's been quite the sleepless week around the Golden house. Poor Paxton has developed allergies already-probably because it's March and everything is already in mid May bloom. He is so stuffy that it has totally messed up his sleeping pattern. Where he was down for the night by 8 and wouldn't wake up until 5 am, he is having issues going down for the night and sleeping in stretches longer than 4 hours. I have to suction him out 2-3 times a night! He is wide awake in the middle of the night. He has trouble eating because of how stuffy he is. His 4 month appointment is on the 28th, so if he is still having issues-I'll talk with the Pediatrician. I have been doing a lot of reading on establishing a more solid bedtime routine for the other two kiddos. We were very rigid with Malachi. We were kind of tough with Haly (it helped that she has always been a great sleeper). Somehow, they still get up in the middle of the night quite often! I am sure that once Malachi starts presc...

I'm such a skeptic. It's who I am. I have an almost impossible time believing something is truth if I haven't experienced it myself first hand. This skepticism plays out everywhere. Sometimes I wish I weren't wired like this. Have you ever wished you weren't wired a certain way? It's truly a set up for failure. Instead of having the ability to learn from others, I am stuck in limbo between wanting to believe the validity in someone elses experience and having to experience it myself. It's not that I'd necessarily prefer to not believe, it's more that I must develop my own perceptions. Hands on experience. I have had many friends who have lost a loved one. I could never understand their depth of hurt or pain. Although I felt sad for them, it goes much deeper than that. That person is no longer a phone call away. All the plans you had with them are ruined and the time it took to dream up those plans, wasted. What's left are the memories of them. Yo...