Contentment

I am watching the neighbor next door. She's pruning her bushes, pulling weeds, arranging a few things in her yard. She finishes, cleans up, and heads inside in about 10 minutes. I can't help but to think about how long it would take me to do that same task! It's funny how I long for quiet or a nap some days, but because of the constant chaos, fulfilling those wants are few and far between. I wouldn't want to trade what I do for any amount of anything. I'm teaching my little girl how to be a mommy, my baby how to crawl and my big boy how to respect his friends. I have the blessing of loving on other kids while their parents are working. The job that I do is so important, I realize this, but that doesn't mean I don't get caught up in wishing they were older. I get caught up in these romantic ideas-not just with my children, but in everyday life. Somewhere along the way, through three kids, marriage and everything else- I have lost my contentment. I have lost that carefree way to life and chill attitude. I have this constant burden like I am always being scrutinized and that I need to constantly be doing something. I'm missing out on fun with my family because I am always on the go and can't just chill for a sec. I'm working hard at unplugging, or putting down the broom and finding ways to enjoy our little family. Any fun suggestions of things to do in the area this summer??

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