Rebellion

"Even in our own hearts, we see the influence of sin. We are in a battle, and we feel it every day. No matter how badly we want to honor God, sin screams at us from all sides, begging us to rebel against God and pursue our own desires. We struggle with temptations, and we have a hard time making sense of the things we see happening around us. Every one of us has had a profound sense that the world is not now as it was intended to be"

This passage from the book I am reading for community group study, (Multiply by: Francis Chan), hit hard today. As I am in a very busy season of life, sometimes I sulk and just say, "I just want to do what I want to do, when I want to do it." I just want to fulfill a sudden desire in my heart to go to Target and get Chevron printed crib sheets. It is difficult and takes a lot of self control and discipline to keep pressing towards the mark.

My children-They will not stay 1, 3, & 5. They grow by the day and are developing into little people. They are developing desires of their own. I can see the little flames starting to take light. I can see their minds working through their desires.

In the world God designed before the fall, there was no strife or frustrating labor. This makes me have a different attitude. There are times where I want to physically place my hands over my ears and escape into a quiet place. There are times where I can hear my own voice so loud in my head asking God how much more He thinks I can handle at once. And the answer is-keep pressing towards the mark. Keep pressing towards finding joy in my labor.

I am confident that sin will always be screaming at me from all sides to rebel. And sometimes, I might just mess up. But I know that this is not how it was intended to be. So for now, I will keep this passage fresh on my mind and keep pressing on.

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