Our adoption journey has reached its 18th month. It has been difficult not to compare our adoption story to anyone else's. While there have been others who have walked this path, it feels lonely in the sense that it takes (so) long. It's difficult not to think that a child could be born 2 times over in the amount of time we have been in this. In the grand scheme of life, I imagine this will feel like a small chunk of time when we look back. We may even look back and laugh at our antsy and impatient hearts. The desire we have to bring our little girl into our family to be loved and accepted is overwhelming. Sometimes it is that desire that makes us feel sad with longing, as if this process has no end! I feel as though the adoption process takes so long because it is preparing you in ways being pregnant for nine months with a biological child cannot. There are hours of training, gathering paperwork, attending doctor appointments, gathering paperwork, raising funds, tracking down paperwork, and raising funds.
In my mind, all that stands between us and our daughter (besides thousands of miles) is money and paperwork. While those are both daunting, I know this:
God is not absent in our journey, but continually working and moving. While we may feel as though this journey is stunted by lack of money or the efficiency of submitting paperwork as fast as possible-it is all in His perfect timing.
This is just the start of her sweet little story. Where her page will meet ours. No matter where her tale has taken her or will take her tomorrow, our story will always read Love. We will wait (not so) patiently in love.
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